Art Theraphy

Let see, what should I write. Hmm ?

So recently someone asked me to share my experience in the past of handling depression/stress. The old me would say no and I need to keep it as a secret but guess what, new me said yes and I want to share to help others. We know ourselves very well compared others and we make our own decisions in our lives. But sometimes, the decisions that we made were wrong and we need to seek help from others. Not really a help but just an opinion. Considering people point of view from different angle.

I had my own problems, even until now. It is hard to describe verbally, so I use a medium like writing to share with people. Well, some will comment on it and I want to thank them.

If you are facing problems right now, no matter what issues, please seek some help from others or even ask general opinions from unknown people. See what they will tell you. It is okay to handle problems by yourself, but you know your limit. There will be a time where you cannot tolerate/handle well, you will eventually kill your inner self.

Time like this, people used to blame God for what happened in their lives. They do not realize the mistakes that they made. It is okay to let your anger out but … like I always said, there is a limit for everything.

Stress and depression are two different things. Here is what I found from googling ~

Stress is good if it motivates you but it’s bad if it wears you down. Many factors can contribute to the stress you experience, and this stress can cause changes in your body that affect your overall physical, mental, and emotional health.

Depression is more serious and long-lasting than stress and requires a different kind of help

So yes, too many stress also can lead to depression and it is NOT OKAY. Keep it to yourself for a long time can lead to severe depression. It is very dangerous because it can self-harm you.

I am not sure about other treatments for depression but mine was art therapy. I was having a depression for 4 months and doctor considered it as a mild depression (Thank god it was not severe).

How do I felt?

I felt like a shit. Everything I did was wrong, so wrong that I cried silently in my room. I even have suicidal thoughts and sometimes I wished I was in car accident and died. Back then, I told no one about this but my ex-roommate sense something different about me. Maybe because she is a counseling student? Entahlah ~

She asked me to seek help from professional. I was not okay because I do not trust people and for me, asking them would make things worst. I even have doubt. But oh well, she was a damn stubborn and she told my mom. HAHA. I was dragged back home and met a doctor.

Then, the long story happened. Haaaa. Okay, we skipped that part. So, the doctor prescribed me a medicine that can calm me since I was a type of over-thinking about something. Took the pills and it made me felt drowsy. And because of that pills, I spent most of my time sleeping. Hah ! He even tried to send me to talk therapy but it failed cuz I won’t talk or even dare to share. Hahaha.

Back to my mom, she was damn worried. Then one day, we went to a bookstore and I found an adult coloring book. Bought it without any second thoughts. I stopped taking the pills for a while when I started to color that book (btw, I did not tell my doc about it).

A piece took me 2 to 8 hours to finish. You can imagine how complicated the coloring was. But for me, it made me calm and peaceful. I even stopped myself from think which was good. It like somehow connects with your emotions.

However the therapy is employed, patients find that art allows them to express thoughts and feelings which may actually be roadblocks to progress in traditional therapy sessions. That is because some emotions can feel too painful to verbalize.

Through the art, it releases dopamine that stimulates and bring pleasure to ourselves. It boosts our moods and reduces the depression that we face.

I know it is very hard in the beginning but try to get yourself some help. Don’t make a destruction to yourself or else, you will regret it later.

So, this is my sharing. Hope it helps. If you are unsure, try to google or ask any experts. Thank you

Is there anything wrong?

Sit at a place where you feel comfortable, try to think about what will happen in future and try to find out many possible answers you can. It is not that hard and it is not that easy too. Think carefully. They do not know what you are going through. I know it is hard for some of us to explain the situation to others and you think it is better to keep it silent. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t ask you to be opened up but be honest to yourself. 

Are you feeling okay? 

If the answer is no, just say no. Don’t fake it. Eventually, you will dig your own grave.

If you’ve feeling to give up in whatever you’re doing now, just don’t proceed. If asking opinions from people around you is not worth it, then stop it too. Ask yourself if it’s okay to give up now? After all what you have done, it is worth it? Be stubborn if you want, if you think giving up right now is the best choice you have, then go and give up, and don’t ask around again about people opinions.

Be confident with yourself. But if you’re unsure, why don’t give a time to yourself to reflect everything and ask forgiveness first. Then, go and ask Him in your prayer. You always know He knows the best for you. 

Why ignore His existence?

If you have friends around who do not appreciate you much, let go. Be kind to yourself and be kind to people around you. Don’t forget to be kind to unkind people. I know it’s hard but try. If you think you had enough, don’t stop it. Let yourself have a good rest. Get a distance for a moment, yes a moment and not forever. It’s okay if people don’t appreciate you, it’s okay. Because those people who you think don’t appreciate you is the people who you care.

 Am I wrong? Think again. There are some people you help involuntary/voluntary and those people you’re not close but they will appreciate you more than ever. Your small act make them remember you. So why need to stop be kind to others?

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle – Socrates

Live your life. Appreciate everything that you have now